Who am I?
My name is Ana, and I came from the Philippines. I have been here for four years already, and I can say that I am coping well with Singapore's lifestyle, which is so different from the Philippines'. Adjusting is hard - emotionally, socially and educationally. Everything is so different. However, my family, especially my Mom's hard work, is the constant drive that pushes me to not only adapt, but also perform well. I also motivate myself to pursue what I think I deserve, and try hard to achieve as much as I am able to, for I know that this is the main way I can repay all of the sacrifices my mother has put in to get us here.
For most, I may come across as reserved and unapproachable. However, behind that cold façade, I am really a friendly person, and actually very talkative. Bubbly and comical, I always try to make my peers laugh and make them feel better when they are feeling down. I try hard to keep up a happy atmosphere. Otherwise, I would end up feeling gloomy too. Sometimes, though I know it is unhealthy, I keep all my feelings inside, not letting them show, perceiving it as some kind of weakness. Maybe that's why I come across as frosty sometimes. Always grasping for control, I dictate the feelings I show, for fear that I'd end up losing control. Still, I am in a constant struggle to overcome this, without being too showy or sensitive.
My strengths include good command of the English language. Not that I am saying it is excellent or something, I guess it is considered as above average. I am pretty negative practically all the time. I am not used to compliments, so when I am given one, I feel awkward accepting it and just try to make it seem as if what I had done is just nothing. I guess you can consider this my weakness - always thinking negative. I am scared to hope, scared for it to just be crushed in the end. When you're negative, at least it's a good thing when you're wrong. Or at least I think so. I am trying to build up enough confidence to dare stop doubting myself, and be positive enough.
Though I like socialising and making my companions laugh and feel at ease, teamwork is also actually my weakness. I am used to doing and managing everything by myself, so working together comes as a challenge for me. More often than not, I end up doing most of the work myself. I hope to overcome this, so I can actually really enjoy not only coming together as a group, but also working together as one.
Just like any other person, I have both likes and dislikes. I love books, as explained in the next paragraph. Also, the library is one of my most favourite places in the world. It's so serene and tranquil, calming my senses and seeping away all the stress built up in my everyday life. Everything is so quiet, and there is something about the musky smell of books that is oddly comforting to me. It is easy to just let yourself go in the shelves of books lining the whole library, each offering places and story to tell. I also love music. It can soothe my nerves, boost my mood, energise me and sometimes even let me vent my anger without hurting myself or anyone.
There are also certain things that I cannot help but dislike. I hate too much noise. Or anything else that interferes with my concentration for that matter. It's already hard enough for me to concentrate on pretty much anything. But most of all, the thing that I dislike the most is procrastinating. Which is exactly what I have been doing for so long. I really hope I can overcome this too.
I dislike being vertically challenged. In short, being short. When I was young, I keep wishing I'd stop growing taller. Now that I really did stop growing taller, I keep wishing the contrary will happen. I guess this proves nobody's ever contented.
I like animals. I really do. But worms are seriously another matter. There's nothing in this world that I hate more than worms. Maybe my mom passed on that phobia to me. Silly as it may seem, I would honestly rather see a snake than face a worm. I have no idea why. Their crawly, fleshy, squirmy ways just does something that provokes so much from me. Mostly disgust.
I also dislike the fact that the only thing I can easily describe myself as (bookworm), has of all things got to do with this animal. Come to think of it; my most favourite and loathed objects combined together to something I am. Ironic.
Now, with so much time at hand, it is easy having so many things go through your head, even unnecessary ones. To kill time, I always borrow and read books. This is my favourite hobby. There is just something about them that preoccupies me so much as to enable me to 'escape' into the world I am reading about and forget everything else, even for just a while. Though it may seem unusual, I actually have a hobby of collecting library receipts of the books I borrowed. I keep the ever-growing pile of such receipts in my personal file, careful not to lose it. It is like a souvenir to me, something that reminds me of places I've been to, although only in books.
This is a rough but main outline of what I am like. Hope it helped. Have a nice day! :D
For most, I may come across as reserved and unapproachable. However, behind that cold façade, I am really a friendly person, and actually very talkative. Bubbly and comical, I always try to make my peers laugh and make them feel better when they are feeling down. I try hard to keep up a happy atmosphere. Otherwise, I would end up feeling gloomy too. Sometimes, though I know it is unhealthy, I keep all my feelings inside, not letting them show, perceiving it as some kind of weakness. Maybe that's why I come across as frosty sometimes. Always grasping for control, I dictate the feelings I show, for fear that I'd end up losing control. Still, I am in a constant struggle to overcome this, without being too showy or sensitive.
My strengths include good command of the English language. Not that I am saying it is excellent or something, I guess it is considered as above average. I am pretty negative practically all the time. I am not used to compliments, so when I am given one, I feel awkward accepting it and just try to make it seem as if what I had done is just nothing. I guess you can consider this my weakness - always thinking negative. I am scared to hope, scared for it to just be crushed in the end. When you're negative, at least it's a good thing when you're wrong. Or at least I think so. I am trying to build up enough confidence to dare stop doubting myself, and be positive enough.
Though I like socialising and making my companions laugh and feel at ease, teamwork is also actually my weakness. I am used to doing and managing everything by myself, so working together comes as a challenge for me. More often than not, I end up doing most of the work myself. I hope to overcome this, so I can actually really enjoy not only coming together as a group, but also working together as one.
Just like any other person, I have both likes and dislikes. I love books, as explained in the next paragraph. Also, the library is one of my most favourite places in the world. It's so serene and tranquil, calming my senses and seeping away all the stress built up in my everyday life. Everything is so quiet, and there is something about the musky smell of books that is oddly comforting to me. It is easy to just let yourself go in the shelves of books lining the whole library, each offering places and story to tell. I also love music. It can soothe my nerves, boost my mood, energise me and sometimes even let me vent my anger without hurting myself or anyone.
There are also certain things that I cannot help but dislike. I hate too much noise. Or anything else that interferes with my concentration for that matter. It's already hard enough for me to concentrate on pretty much anything. But most of all, the thing that I dislike the most is procrastinating. Which is exactly what I have been doing for so long. I really hope I can overcome this too.
I dislike being vertically challenged. In short, being short. When I was young, I keep wishing I'd stop growing taller. Now that I really did stop growing taller, I keep wishing the contrary will happen. I guess this proves nobody's ever contented.
I like animals. I really do. But worms are seriously another matter. There's nothing in this world that I hate more than worms. Maybe my mom passed on that phobia to me. Silly as it may seem, I would honestly rather see a snake than face a worm. I have no idea why. Their crawly, fleshy, squirmy ways just does something that provokes so much from me. Mostly disgust.
I also dislike the fact that the only thing I can easily describe myself as (bookworm), has of all things got to do with this animal. Come to think of it; my most favourite and loathed objects combined together to something I am. Ironic.
Now, with so much time at hand, it is easy having so many things go through your head, even unnecessary ones. To kill time, I always borrow and read books. This is my favourite hobby. There is just something about them that preoccupies me so much as to enable me to 'escape' into the world I am reading about and forget everything else, even for just a while. Though it may seem unusual, I actually have a hobby of collecting library receipts of the books I borrowed. I keep the ever-growing pile of such receipts in my personal file, careful not to lose it. It is like a souvenir to me, something that reminds me of places I've been to, although only in books.
This is a rough but main outline of what I am like. Hope it helped. Have a nice day! :D
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